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Productive Insomnia
03:52
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[Intro]
Radios playing different stations
TV in the background
Having trouble handling the sound
There's no one around, still the noise
Pillow to the head, eyes closed
So exposed, mind explode
Stay still, wait 20, groan
Get up, work, till I can’t move
Counting the hours I’m losing
My morning disapproving
[Verse 1]
I'm not the best with my health
My problems under radar, stealth
Brushed over, rushed closure
Life hangover whilst being sober
Rooms a mess
From the days I can't handle the stress
Work more, sleep less
Only need my work and home address
I find myself wearing what I collapsed in
Hard to find time to relax in
Don't know where my max is
Or how long I'm lasting
But the work is there so much progress in months
Taking projects in bunches, setting targets I hit
Making squares fit into circles
Smile at the referrals
[Hook]
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Productive Insomnia
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[Verse 2]
Sorry you got my email at 3 am
Can't imagine how busy I am
So much work, no time, I can
Fit into 18 hours Just can't
Form a phrase, no memory in the haze
Stay where I'm comfy
But there is no joy there
Wake up, no adjusting my Saiyan hair
Diet of black coffee so I spit brown
Grinding my sound
Wake with the cafes, sleep with the bars
Wondering which shift will be my last
So I can spend time on what I wan not what pays
Watch the commas in my plays
And the stages in my phases
Till the crowd know my phrases
[Hook]
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Productive Insomnia
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[Verse 3]
Keep pushing, can take it
Till my body's breaking
Again, feet aching
On auto pilot as problems pile up
Don't want to see the release
Just an emotional spree
Wake to see where I end up
Want to know thoughts?
Sobriety helps tighten lips
I'll talk after the work ticks over
6hrs, three days
You'll find me closer
And I know I can't keep this up
Just need more time
I still haven't learned this rhyme thing in full
Put words into phrases I can do
Just to see you look at me proud
Known for more than being loud
Do my work at night while you sleep
Keep working till I feel complete
[Hook]
It’s a product of
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Productive Insomnia
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Productive Insomnia
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2. |
Sleep In (feat. KÖDA)
03:16
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[Chorus: KÖDA]
Didn't get out of bed today
Felt what was the point
Didn't realise you felt this way’
I left it with the voice in my head
He tells me how I pushed everyone away
To be loved, to feel guilty
So I'm in with the pretty
Who don't see me that way
[Verse 1: Ezra Allen]
Pushing this creative streak
How to write about her without looking like a creep
I feel If a car hit at least I'd get some sleep
I’m far from l where I used to be
I don't know how to treat, myself
I go for long walks my shoes can't take
I go for long weeks without a break
Unhappy with every decision I make
Unhappy with the smiles I fake
‘I’m great’ everyone’s favourite lie
Each one yanks on that knot tied
You're not ready for my inside
You’re not ready for my inside
[Verse 2: Ezra Allen]
Tired of being hypochondriac
Waking up in the cardiac ward
Making these mistakes then
Wonder why I’ve had been here before
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words are swords
And my words are talking goals
I'm reaching towards
Scared of the future
Scared I don't see myself in it
I feel like I’m quitting before beginning
Am I not winning?
Or am I better off brooding like Bruce Wayne
Walking through my days they feel the same
Absorbing problems I’m done passing blame
I’m done playing this character
[Verse 3: Ezra Allen]
Tired of writing sad songs
Finding ways to spend long nights
Excuses to sleep, or not
Watching the room I lost the plot
Maybe top shelf liquor will keep me in high spirits
Or I’ll shout the problem so loud I can hear it
Say to Hello mr blue sky
Ask him why he's been away for so long
Morning montage movies, showers playing that song
Conspiracy board theories find out where I went wrong
I belong
[Bridge: Ezra Allen & KÖDA]
Stare at the empty space to my left
Reflection in my phone see what’s left
(Well this is life through a screen)
Morning but the energy is spent
Last nights text is what I really meant
Morning apologies for the truth I regret
(Well this is life through a screen)
[Chorus: KÖDA]
Didn't get out of bed today
Felt what was the point
Didn't realise you felt this way’
I left it with the voice in my head
He tells me how I pushed everyone away
(life through a screen)
To be loved, to feel guilty
(life through a screen)
So I'm in with the pretty
(well this is life through a screen)
Who don't see me that way
Didn't get out of bed today
Felt what was the point
Didn't realise you felt this way’
I left it with the voice in my head
He tells me how I pushed everyone away
(life through a screen)
To be loved, to feel guilty
(life through a screen)
So I'm in with the pretty
(Well this is life through a screen)
Who don't see me that way
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3. |
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[Verse 1: Ezra Allen]
Wish I
Wish I
Wish I could grow up
Hope I don't get too old to grow up
Wish I could grow down
Caught on that bug goin’ round
Allowed myself space to mature
Can make me feel like manure, shit
Lil bit, throw it, my life
Or maybe I'm across it
Balanced, stretched thin
Found peace, lost this
I got this, I got this
Anthem to failure
Life doesn't come with a reset
There's a manual, I can't reach it
So much to learn, they don't teach it
Spoon fed ignorance to preach it
Thought I'd have it all at that 1 8
Life was supposed be great
Stay out late, clubbing
Live life like it was nothing
My Lady she’s stunning
Keep bluffing with nothing
Speak with confidence
Walk with pride
Something's different inside
Nothing to hide
Insecurity for adolescence
Wish I could count those blessings
[Hook: Sinthomes]
And everybody’s telling me
Which ways up
And everybody’s selling me
The next miracle
But I’m still broken and hurting
Just need some place
I can find peace
Hope I’m never too old to grow up
[Verse 2: Ezra Allen]
I feel like the tv lied
Thought there was a change
Inside
18, was a metamorphosis
Adulthood progresses
Why does no one address this
Wish I could summon wisdom
Answer clean cut, clear
Take the wheel steer
Learn to hear, listen, help
Actively look after my health
Appreciate the value of work
But could use some Insta wealth
Instagram pushing my ego but still don't love myself
Oxymoron, life sets rules then excuses itself
Still working out issues
Busy replacing the shoes with holes or socks, pants it’s endless
[Hook: Sinthomes]
And everybody’s telling me
Which ways up
And everybody’s selling me
The next miracle
But I’m still broken and hurting
Just need some place
I can find peace
Hope I’m never too old to grow up
[Verse 3: Ezra Allen]
I want to be better, Work at it
Just don't know what at is
Or if I'm close
Can't learn from my peers
They have no idea
Misguided advice surrounds
Distinguishing when words are just sounds
People make in their personal panic
Every great quote has an equally great retort
How do you know you were taught correct
When someone says you’re wrong
Is a lie, a lie if you believed it
Can you try and try to achieve it
When do you know it's a lost cause
Or just keep trying just because
Someone told you it was impossible
[Hook: Sinthomes]
And everybody’s telling me
Which ways up
And everybody’s selling me
The next miracle
But I’m still broken and hurting
Just need some place
I can find peace
Hope I’m never too old to grow up
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[Verse 1: Ezra Allen]
I smile for the nights that follow
Take joy in the ups that borrow
From downs so deep they burrow into memories hidden
I laugh through tears through songs that bring me near
To thoughts unspoken, barriers broken
Placed in defence now used against me
I ride a roller coaster that's cable snaps regularly
And in seconds my mind changes drastically
Stretch thin elastic, far from mr fantastic
But still I remain enthusiastic
[Bridge: Ezra Allen]
Please Smile, please Smile
Takes a step to run a mile
Please Smile, please Smile
Hasn't been that fake in a while
[Hook: Cheyne Moreira]
Oh
I feel I’m folding in
A mask that will enrich
I'm never home without a smile
Oh
The self love have lost
I’ll be alone
Or
Never be alone but it’s hollow company
[Verse 2: Ezra Allen]
I’m going to laugh, make jokes
You might not find funny
Because you’ll leave and I’ll turn runny
I’m going to talk, drop facts be a distraction
Because later I’ll have no words or passion
Want to be Mr Brightside
And Smile Like I Mean it
But most of my energy Is spent trying
To make you believe it
I’m going to enjoy this fleeting high
Because when it comes to goodbye
We aren’t on good terms
The darkness yearns, I hold on tight
[Bridge: Ezra Allen]
Please Smile, Please Smile
Takes a step to run a mile
Please Smile, Please Smile
Hasn't been that fake in a while
[Hook: Cheyne Moreira]
Oh
I feel I’m folding in
A mask that will enrich
I'm never home without a smile
Oh
The self love have lost
I’ll be alone
Or
Never be alone but it’s hollow company
[Verse 3: Ezra Allen]
Just destroyed my nails again
Is it stress? Stress is a factor, it doesn't matter
It’s about self control, I lack it, It’s all clatter
Work - Sleep - Words - Eat , Work - Hard - Elite
Too - Much - Retreat, Need - Time - To Breathe
Break through It’s all you
You’re the solution, so when they ask
Tell them of the tasks, completed
The success, skip over the excessive stress
Tears, shaking, insomnia
They don’t buy broken things, rotten fruit sit on shelves
So we paint ourselves pretty, instead of getting help
Lips streaked with joy eyes glued innocence
Boy you’re a man, so learn to smile, stand straight
Emotion isn’t stylish, crying is childish
You’ll be able to hold it in with mileage
And when your sad make it silent
When you see weakness, salt the wound
While you remain sleepless
Assume they just can’t take it
They are the weak link: break it
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5. |
Sad Songs
03:19
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[Intro]
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
Listen to music I can't relate to stare into this life
I've grown to hate through and through
Working out what I'll do
[Verse 1]
Only here for the sad songs
Sit down, it'll drag on
How long will the effects last
Snakes emerge from the high grass
Spit their venom then burrow holes
Diamonds started out as coal, I'm told
Pressure will crush you or make you thrive
I say inside
Only here for the sad songs as they speak to my soul
Lyrics cutting deep they scar, remind me of when I lost control
Scribbled folded paper in a jar, where you kept your regrets
Expectations I never met be them yours or mine
I wasn't the sign from god I wanted to be
Didn't turn into to the man you wanted to see
[Hook]
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
[Verse 2]
Play me the track
Remind me of what I lack
Tell me the tales no detail missed
Shed the skin let the mist fly away
Be real with me, confide in me
Reveal to me, lay it all down
Lie with me, don’t lie to me
I’m the prophet your the source
Sure you’ll profit
Just don’t stray your course
I need the conversation bring me down with the elevation
What you do is magic, when you dig through the tragic you’re the tape to the fragile
Jump in head first to alleviate, the sounds that help deviate
Destructive thoughts that rampage like a gang of youths
Speak the truth and I’ll listen through the fear and trembling and distance
[Hook]
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
And I'll sit on this couch
As the world goes on
Watch the party alive
Work out where I belong
[Verse 3]
Hold this book, here’s a pen
There’s a place to be open
They don’t look, it depends
On how it will affect them
Write it and read it again and again
Put it to a tune it’ll be less intense
Hope they don’t read into it or take offence
Project a character, larger than life
Realise they won’t believe the hype
So start writing about your nights
Horrorshows to Walk You Home
Parties in the corner, odd one out disorder
Too long in bed syndrome
Staring at your phone with no one to call
Mountains of pages about your falls
The baggage you haul
Soundtrack 2 My Life, Man on the Moon
Talking To Myself, all afternoon
Love my company, X Infinity
Too much brings the fidgety, anxious
Moments that fuel my rhymes
Taking the time When It’s Dark Out
To be the Sad Boy your read about
Maybe then one day you’ll stand tall
So then someone can withdrawal to my wrongs
Vibe out to the Sad Songs
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Ezra Allen Melbourne, Australia
Ezra Allen is an alt hip-hop act living in Naarm, Australia. Allen offers a lyric-heavy brand of hip-hop whilst drawing inspiration from genres of soul, jazz, and indie-rock. Allen is known for his introspective lyricism that explores mental health, masculinity, and maturity.At the conclusion of 2022, his debut album Summer of George was featured on Bandcamp’s ‘New and Notable.’ ... more
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