1. |
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[Intro]
I feel I’ve lost my place
Floating in space no grace, life’s a race and
I don’t know what to chase anymore
The words just come out sore
[Verse 1]
Just wanna be great
Don’t have to rely on faking for its sake
I make grandiose claims, clamp chains
No one else to blame
Just wanna soar, find more heights
See the lore understand the mights
The wheres, the whos, the clues to the spotlight
I can’t seem to maintain or stay in lane
Fanning flames to my burnout
Stanning artists with turnout
Learning more, showing less, it’s all a test
all the stuff I churn out
Aimed for rolling stones, but I can’t get no satisfaction
What I have left I ration
[Chorus x 4]
Blank pages no stages well,
I might just leave this here
Wrong phrases dark places, yeah
Changes start to appear
[post-Chorus]
I got this,
I got this
[Verse 2]
Need to be daring like Daredevil, Frank Miller
But I’m Swimming in Circles like Mac
Want to be new and nuance, J.Dilla
But I’m lost in the facts and that’s
Pushing me into a hole, leaving my soul in two
Lost my role, where’s my goal to be one of the few who do
Hits the wall and climbs, reaches the view and finds
There’s more to life than landmines
[Verse 3]
All I see is empty pages,
Half-finished projects haven’t touched for ages
Wrote six songs, crossed out phrases
Time to break out the basics
And it narrates the question of changes
Do I push against the wall in pain
Act like everything’s still the same
[Verse 4]
I get headaches, hands shake, I
can’t speak, can’t work, anxieties multiply like
Fibonacci’s rabbits, developing habits, bad ones.
I don’t want to talk about
The elephant in my room,
Rather hire Daedalus, throw ‘em in the labyrinth
It’s bull, like squeezing water from a stone
Locked out of my mind kingdome
I don’t sleep as well, too much time to think it’s hell
Just wanna excel,
That’s me in a nutshell.
[Chorus x 4]
Blank pages no stages well,
I might just leave this here
Wrong phrases dark places, yeah
Changes start to appear
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2. |
White Whale Space Opera
04:37
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[Chorus] x 2
Now It hurts that I fight
though I know you’re no good to me
Just wish, I didn’t lie, to say that it’s love
Just want it, to be great, let it play out like it could be
Living, at a level, where it’s okay, it’s enough
[Verse 1]
I feel like a dog chasing its tail
Went after that whale, again
I’m playing pretend, I can’t fail, my friend,
don’t have a choice I’m bending that crutch
Losing my voice
6 years destroyed, mark it even
Still, go back to watch you leaving
Maybe, I’ll be singing bleeding love
Dead horse I’m beating but I bluff
Off mountains, they don’t move
Playing a game, I know I’ll lose, still I choose
To show up, maybe it’ll work this time.
[Chorus]
Now It hurts, that I fight,
though I know you’re no good to me
Just wish, I didn’t lie, to say that it’s love
Just want it, to be great, let it play out like it could be
Living, at a level, where it’s okay, it’s enough
[Verse 2]
I’m faking distaste,
pushing away feelings, post haste
Why can’t I replace, you
Staying away to make do
I hate, that I can have a good thing
You send a message and I forget
I let you hold the net
No matter how good it gets
All bets are off and I’m with you.
Ruin foundations to continue
Poison resolve with youth
Why ruin this with the truth
[Chorus]
Now It hurts, that I fight,
though I know you’re no good to me
Just wish, I didn’t lie, to say that it’s love
Just want it, to be great, let it play out like it could be
Living, at a level, where it’s okay, it’s enough
[Post-Chorus]
I feel like a dog chasing its tail
I went after that whale, again
[Bridge]
I’ve been bleeding, leading on
eating my soul and will
What a hole to fill Debt to pay
and I don’t want to see the bill
Grill me and I’ll tell you how to do it right
Still, I’ll let it play through the late night
Kill time, reading my thoughts in fright
Then bury them away, out of sight
Part 2 | 6/8 B Major
[ Verse 3 ]
I’m Freeeeeeeee
What a way to be,
All polite smiles, no animosity.
Loves requited, fueled, excited
I’m delighted,
writing with ignited passion
Cashing Checks, they small though
But I’m building a folio and following
Swallowing pride and not wallowing
In self-pity,
[ Verse 4 ]
Now it hurts to see I fought to lose
A path to choose,
Reduced to self-abuse, confused
Nothing I can do, can’t be excused
Walk on daggers, Perusing,
Hindsight is slightly amusing
When I think of the life I’m producing
The new things,
Head in the clouds I’m a fiend
[Verse 5 ]
Looking back, thinking
Why I, gotta be a moby dick about it
Reminisce, sinking
But I’d, be a different person without it
Chasing White Whales like it defines me
Clayfaced, lost shape, I need reminding
Losing touch end up in Arkham
Confrontational, turn around, pardon?
Stand Nobel, don’t react to Argon
Adjust to the real world, no-garden
For eve, we learned to leave
[Summer of George Outro]
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3. |
Summer of George
02:49
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[Verse 1]
This is the part where I put the lyrics
Fun phat basslines and satirics
And have you dancing
And have you applause
But it’s been a bit off because
[Verse 2]
I can't work out if it's get out of bed day
Or get out of bed, no shower, I lay
Thinking about all the things
I should be doing, projects brewing
Left to steep, goals too steep
The beach is good in theory
But I'm pale and I burn like mellows
By the campfire, Am I too weary
Eerie thoughts to the future
Staring at a computer that doesn't have the answers
[Chorus]
Can you maintain the high
Can you make it edgy
Can you perform a lie
You do it already
Can you maintain the high
Can you make it edgy
Can you perform a lie
Can you light a fire
[Verse 3]
Tried to write a hot summer album
Found them little inspiration
Burn out then deceleration
Learn so much I forgot,
Tongued tied up in knots,
I've been
[Verse 4]
Watching holiday flicks and frat comedies
Wondering if I'm in the anomalies
Is my quality of life undermined by my inclined to stay inside, I find
I'm spending too long in comparison
Could I be more adventurous if I'm Harrison
If I could afFord it.
Grabbed my bags, picked a flight and boarded
[Chorus]
Can you maintain the high
Can you make it edgy
Can you perform a lie
You do it already
Can you maintain the high
Can you make it edgy
Can you perform a lie
Can you light a fire
[Verse 5]
I wanted to make something special
But I’m stuck working on me
This was going to be next level
Maybe that’s album three
Or do two point five, get back the drive
Feel like I arrived, then sat outside
Feel like it’s sex drugs, and depression
Everything else's for likes, that’s my impression
But this album can’t get another extension
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4. |
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[pre-Chorus: Amber Ferraro]
Tell the world it’s love to feel the high
And I’ve got a funny feeling
Holes that we make
Just destined to ache
All is fair so choose to feel the high
[Verse 1: Ezra Allen]
I live in expectation
Finding rock bottom has a basement
Delusions of the places I can go, no patience
Trouble with hearing half the time, Van Gogh
Ouch, my mutilations
Aren’t quite as physical, difficult to diagnose
Not visible when I take off my clothes
And I’ve learned I can do that well enough
I’m no longer bluffing but nothing is rushing
When it comes to loving I’m coming to conclusions and
the judging is flooding my mind
Standards are ruining me, behind closed doors
Settling old scores, always, asking, for more
But I don’t know where my illusions begin
Can read the lies that I’m living in
I can see that you're pretty and
I’ll exaggerate the rest or try my best
Or maybe this is genuine
[pre-Chorus: Amber Ferraro]
Tell the world it’s love to feel the high
And I’ve got a funny feeling
Holes that we make
Just destined to ache
All is fair so choose to feel the high
[Chorus]
[Verse 2]
I can dream of mice and men
I’ll move forward but wait for the bend
Self destructive trend
The rush of exchange, deranged
Lost in expectations i've arranged
It’s a high until it’s not and I’m lost in thought
Counter intuitive to advice I’ve supported
So well versed I could’ve taught it, but despite
It doesn’t apply well in the late night
I’m emotionally repressed at your expense
What I’m receiving, it’s intense
Do you see me through a blurred lense?
Don’t notice where the face ends
and the mind begins.
Better at dictating with a ballpoint pen
I’m watching furniture crash into walls
But you’re smiling and waiting
Do you like understand what you’re saying
Or ignoring the fire you’re playing with
Placed it in myth, amongst Arthur
I can't take it farther
[pre-Chorus: Amber Ferraro]
Tell the world it’s love to feel the high
And I’ve got a funny feeling
Holes that we make
Just destined to ache
All is fair so choose to feel the high
[Bridge: Ezra Allen]
I’m in my mind more and more
Floating through space I can’t find the floor
I’m sore and seeing through doors I’m not taking
I’m sure,
I’m not making, the most of my time
Breaking my soul not cross a line
Shaking I need to unwind
Open myself, realign
Come down to earth
No more alpine
[Chorus]
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5. |
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[Verse 1]
Trails of scales sliming over like snails I’m
waiting for bail, another night chasing tails
Dwelling on unreplied emails, the smell of male ego
Because he goes off with another
Or she goes, into some upper, tier
Fearing inadequacy, the whens, the whos,
the what could be
Tunnelling up, what I see, Ignoring accolades piling
Not taking the time for smiling
I’m doing well, as far as I can tell
Compiling new tasks and personnel
It doesn’t really scratch the itch, Probably
Pull a Djokovic, In time
Already miming it in, frustration
Staying agitated on vacation
[Verse 2]
I dropped three EPs in three years, but critical
My spirit animal, Archimedes, You know
The owl that interferes, I’m geared up
For more constantly
So quick to be despondent and then unresponsive
I can be the fondest fan then so defensive
Lash out in offensive
I’m over elaborating
[Bridge]
Looking for validation for validation’s sake,
Keeping pushing the line to see what it makes
It’s been interesting so far,
making imagery from sounds, sonar
Knowledge and growth are my goalposts
Not too concerned about breaking both coasts
Living the cliche of making art
But breaking even’s a good start
And from there, who knows?
Me, I’m five steps ahead
But fail in the now, somehow
[Verse 3]
Tales of sales, scaling down my fails
I’m biting my nails, too hung up on the details
How, so and so just had a hit
I missed again n’ It doesn’t sit
Well and I’ll dwell
whilst I pretend
it didn’t get to me,
And the months I’d spend
In self-righteous self-pity
Time to disband the guilt Committee
In my mind
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6. |
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[Intro: Isadora Lauritz]
As time comes to closing
Wish I smell the roses,
Now the petals are broken, roots decomposing
Thorns disappeared
I never noticed
Could’ve watered
I’m not focused
Blowing dust, my lowest
I never smelled the roses
[Verse 1: Ezra Allen]
Can’t you see my goals?
I shout through empty halls
Be down for the cause through missed calls
and absent-minded conversation
My main attraction is my constant distraction
And when you subtract that you’re a doormat
I walk over
Selling free time for exposure
Polarising links 'I'm a loner'
Lowering the lines, so I fit.
Minimalising time at parties before I split
There's beauty in the fire
that burns the kingdom down
Destructive power without sound
While you’re beaten down like ground beef
Keep ending in a heap
Leaking memories made cheap
And it's not a leap to say
They don't see you anymore
You keep climbing stairs
But don’t look at the floors
Life's a chore, you procrastinate
No source to imitate
[Chorus: Isadora Lauritz]
When all is dead,
Will you take the time then
When they stop calling
Will you take the time then
When you're wealthy independent
Will you take the time then
When you see the thorns,
Feeling tired and worn
Will you take the time then
[Post-Chorus: Isadora]
Take the time then
Take the time then
Take the time
[Verse 2]
Can’t you see the roles, I played
Money that I made and lost
Working at a cost, fingers crossed
That it’ll come to something
something not remembered as the dumb thing
dumb thing, but figure I'm becoming
A relief In disbelief
conceived through looseleaf
spreadsheets and bedsheets
watching as friendships leaks
Into structures I bulldozed
when I built, without much skill
Watching the connections that I killed
I left a while back, new purpose
Weights reracked-earnest
Mistakes-gates-open, mind closed
New problems exposed, but-never disclosed
Steer clear of sincere remarks
that when I look at my year
I'm unaware, there's nothing there
My life’s a private affair
[Chorus: Isadora]
When you're well-read
Will you, take the time then
When there’s applauding
Will you take the time then
When you don't how to spend it
Will you take the time then
When you see the thorns,
realise you’re the cause
Will you take the time then
[Pre-Chorus: Isadora]
Take the time then
Take the time then
Take the time
[Outro]
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7. |
Submarine but Ironic
03:09
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[Verse 1]
If I’m not depressed what’s left, will you think of me?
I’d invite it in like a guest
With blessed content, meant to be
It’s gotta be meant to be, chemical imbalance
That’s the recipe.
I detest the unproductivity
But invested time in this angle
Tangled in self-loathing, I had it handled
Watching it burn through me like a candle
My Achilles’ ankle.
[Verse 2]
If I’m so smart why can’t I start?
I planted a weed and something grew, deep
Could throw to cheap takes at others, expense
But that’s not a muscle I want to tense.
I’m in suspense
I won’t give a pretence.
No one is more keen for what’s next than me
Man I could be, shouting
This dick ain’t free! but it is
Welcome to me, I exist
wrote all my character flaws in a list
Hoping for a spark
If I’m so smart why can’t I start?
[Verse 3]
Nothing comes to mind when I’m staring at stats
Declining, or the success in other artists
I’m finding little joy in creation
I’m starting to fall into a pit inbetween releases
Starting again in a few months picking up the pieces
This is a thankless profession
if you ignore the compliments in the sessions
or the people Who come up to you at shows
saying you sound like so and so,
and you brought your A-game
It’s only a matter of time, it's fine
this industry is just turning tides
If I’m not depressed, what’s there to write about
blank pages unable to fill them out
No passion or interest, can't think of the pun
Or a hook as viral H1N1
[outro]
The world is submerged in doubt and anxiety
I struggle to find the surface
Just wadding through open water unable to find purchase
Unable to find the right rhyme or metaphor
Can't stay in time or sing
My voice is a stain on my memory and I can't seem to rub it out.
Cringe and scrunch up good ideas because I wrote them
Fall further into the deep.
Hold on and ride it out
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Ezra Allen Melbourne, Australia
Ezra Allen is an alt hip-hop act living in Naarm, Australia. Allen offers a lyric-heavy brand of hip-hop whilst drawing inspiration from genres of soul, jazz, and indie-rock. Allen is known for his introspective lyricism that explores mental health, masculinity, and maturity.At the conclusion of 2022, his debut album Summer of George was featured on Bandcamp’s ‘New and Notable.’ ... more
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