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The Life of the Party

by Ezra Allen

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1.
Intro 02:32
[Verse 1] As I walk up to the stage, throats sore before I speak My Life's a book, putting pen to page Writing about my rage, loves, apologies Living my life through mythologies My qualities include; ego, stoic or stubborn Dramatic, So intense you get asthmatic I’m erratic and inconsistent. The world moves too slowly or I think too quick Far from slick High school was tough and I don’t drink Ever got that feeling you don’t fit in Let that fear sink in Life like a clip on Couple of girls came and went Some never knowing they were on my mind Looking for a sign Wasting time on; chasing love, lust Trust, just had about enough Leapt from the cage Free as my wings grew Grew up, turned thoughts to words, Words into stories, stories to rap [Verse 2] Recap to when I was 18 Didn't really pick up a pen till I was a late teen Headaches, writing up, new content Time spent learning to express myself in general Have a feeling my talents congenital, to get medical Suddenly Hip-Hop, sudden new taste Sudden change kicked off Now silence is filled, filled with a kick drum Moments into some lyric or rhyme Passion taking up focus Eating away at culture, locust Getting to know components all the poets Flicking through CuDi, Cole, bino New foundations, study soul, see no loss Only progress in my amnio What I'm made for not like neo No chosen one I chose this one My brainstorm I gave form Been taking hold Allday Alternative But I tried your way They gonna judge me anyway, so whatever, I work late, I'll sleep later Endeavour to enrich with words, even if I don't make tremors
2.
Cage 02:13
[Verse 1] I don’t fit in by default Try to work the faults Mistakes, quirks, ticks World's a cage and I’m in a vault Opinions are assisted by everyone Who insisted on throwing a sneer of an insult Empathy unearned in quest of self discovery All too busy digging for gold while they bury me Sitting on hierarchy, spending time on plastique, losing ability to be unique Nail who sticks out gets hammered down Except it feels like drowning out in white noise while you lose free choice Stuck in routine, trying to find meaning Swimming in a pool next to the ocean Enthusiasm lost to the notion of working towards others goals Working towards meaningless roles Soul crushing, when there’s no drive Hard to keep alive when you heart's not pumping And you're not quite keeping the bed bumping [Verse 2] Work and no Play No Incentive to Stay Chosen, system's broken, bad soil for minds to grow in Pushed too hard to follow the system, that progress is frozen Patronising young minds then asking for devotion Setting the model, beautiful ships in the wrong bottle Irrelevant topics downloaded the syllabus is a fossil Then leave, reprieve, not your problem Issue falls from priority, finds a place at the bottom Life happens cycle repeats, lost thoughts To busy in the party to think of meaningless reports Lost in the sauce and new direction To sit back and remember in quiet reflection But I remember, bad memories using it for inspiration Day in day out counting till November Standing on hot embers Early AM wake ups If I make it, hard to stay awake Lates no mistakes No transparent so I live in opaques Days become easier when there are no stakes [Verse 3] Taking more breaks New changes seen as delinquency Deficiency But my priorities were self development I resonant on a new frequency To be conceived my greatest traits Take flight, dropping weights Changing who narrates my life Making waves to embrace my life Day in Day Out Work to please the crowd Day in Day Out Work to please the crowd Day in Day Out Work to please the crowd Day in Day out Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd Work to please the crowd
3.
Free 02:53
[Verse 1] From the first word you were there Though you didn’t care, a doomed love affair Now there's a bitter taste to all the time I’d waste Misplaced emotion without logical base You were beautiful, you had talent Looks, personality you were balanced Trapped in wonderland like Alice Trapped in the Nausea, the Euphoria Victorious in my campaign? Notice the pain as I failed White whale You were still fishing with me on the hook Watching me squirm at the love I mistook You shredded me up ready for the slaughter ‘Minutes wouldn’t past without a thought of her’ I opened up and you preyed Feelings, thoughts, watching the raid Neglected, disrespected Made me believe I was defective Young and näive, easy to deceive Now I have perspective [Bridge] Mind kept thinking you were right All thoughts went to you at night Though something I could never see That you were plotting out of sight Mind kept thinking you were right All thoughts went to you at night Though something I could never see That you were plotting out of sight [Hook] It's hard to fly with these chains Try to move but you hold the reins Bird wants to soar but my reality I’m caged I’ll never be free Like Icarus but burnt before leaving ground I wanna scream but can’t make a sound This bird wants to soar but my reality I’m caged I’ll never be free [Verse 2] ’Your hair looks nice’ Thanks for the compliment, remember mine you took without acknowledgment Taking the praise, sucking my soul, while I was just trying to feel whole I would idolise you Pull you up when you were down But you just left me like lost and found Pounding on the doors of this cage Frustration never rage The world's a stage and I was a tree In your company my mind wasn’t free So when I see you and talk like amnesia Like time has been anaesthesia I try not to repeat Hiroshima My scars took time to heal Now you think you can tell me how you feel? Then walk away content, get bent I tried to augment a friendship But you never paid attention [Bridge] Mind kept thinking you were right All thoughts went to you at night Though something I could never see That you were plotting out of sight Mind kept thinking you were right All thoughts went to you at night Though something I could never see That you were plotting out of sight [Hook] It's hard to fly with these chains Try to move but you hold the reins Bird wants to soar but my reality I’m caged I’ll never be free Like Icarus but burnt before leaving ground I wanna scream but can’t make a sound This bird wants to soar but my reality I’m caged I’ll never be free [Verse 3] I’m not mad it was unrequited, that I was misguided No, you’re indicted because you delighted in my pain Drives me insane that when I see you I never shout, glare, still care But you are cold, fool's gold Everyone behold the wicked witch of the east, watch her feast I pity you and everyone who smiles your way All I can do is stay far far away
4.
Work {Demo} 02:20
[Verse 1] We all hope to get that running start To where we want to end up I had those goals Not formalised with paper on a wall Held them high in my mind Vocalised made it so far to fall Boasting down those halls And I put the work in No rest for the wicked 2 hours sleep had me twisted Determined to be depicted as this hero The underdog who came from the bottom To the top Until breathing was hard and I was told to stop ‘You're not made for greatness’ diagnosis Still pushed past this, kept focus Couldn't feel I was broken, refused to be hopeless Refused to believe I wasn't made for this Born to be what we want to be Watch my name drop from the heights I wasn't quitting Until after all my work I was admitted I think a little bit broke, all my dedication shattered I had built my dream and watched it in tatters My heart couldn't take it, literally My window of opportunity disappeared With my dignity. [Hook] And I'll keep working, working Work till I work this out And I'll keep working, working Work till I work this out And I'll keep working, working Work till I work this out And I'll keep working, working Work till I work this out And I'll keep working, working Work till I work this out And I'll keep working, working Work till I work this out [Verse 2] Think this was the conception of inspiration 6 months of inaction but I re-prioritised Working on the skills I provide Had the tools but never the drive Hear the rumble of the ignition Putting my mind into submission That's when I watched the isolation Between my peers and I Putting the time into work over social they can't understand why Understand my development, I don't vocalise Now most of my life a surprise Hear complaints, can’t sympathise, not rocket science You work to get results, No rushing it See people get results without work No discouragement Don't need others success as nourishment
5.
Numb 03:46
[Verse 1] Smiles appear, to mask, as | 6 long, as the, effects last | 6 Hysteria en mass | 6 Ignore questions unasked | 6 Can’t smell it or | 4 see the changes | 4 Friends are becoming strangers | 7 Losing wages, on weekends | 7 On bars, that we frequent | 6 Smoke clears, It’s just me here | 6 Empty cup, Had enough | 6 Sobriety has me remember | 9 The night your mind has censored | 7 Watching you stumble, rant, reveal | 8 I left before it ended | 7 Only Here for | 4 invitation obligation | 8 rooms empty | 3 Despite the population | 7 Desperation fills | 5 Lack of social skills | 5 Drown in self pity trying to be witty Friends is a word, actions have meaning I say this because their actions were demeaning At least I had the friends [Hook] Why does joy remind me of sadness Why does normal have to be like this Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in Every connection met with anxiety What could go wrong? I’ll give you a variety Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in Why does joy remind me of sadness Why does normal have to be like this Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in Every connection met with anxiety What could go wrong? I’ll give you a variety Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in [Verse 2] Open the door, hi with a hug Their Enthusiasm, just shrug Minutes ago, tears Walking up streets going through fears Hearing the cars thinking of a way out It's not something I'm saying out loud But this Train platform for the cure Staring at the railing like a lure Hope for the day, don't start parties With my sleeve, absorbing my eyes Hoping to disguise, feeling like shit Not filling rivers but I do my bit Every party carnivale Every interaction put on Giving nothing to let on Doing my best to hide it Hope they hear your silence [Verse 3] This was my doing, I felt it brewing I let it spark into a fire worked on that pyre Irony that lows brought me higher Sadness, made me talk less Compared to the excess of words I expressed My cure, was my poison Drank it for enjoyment Uncovered problems dormant conform it She clicked attending Her songs so old I'm pretending It'll bring feelings back Offending, is what she does best On that I'm depending, I'm Spending what sanity I've left Stealing from logic like theft [Hook] Why does joy remind me of sadness Why does normal have to be like this Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in Every connection met with anxiety What could go wrong? I’ll give you a variety Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in Why does joy remind me of sadness Why does normal have to be like this Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in Every connection met with anxiety What could go wrong? I’ll give you a variety Smile in public, rain disguises emotion Out of view, floods flow in [Outro] Numb Become so numb I’m so done Become so numb Numb Become so numb I’m so done Become so numb.

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released September 15, 2017

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Ezra Allen Melbourne, Australia

Ezra Allen is an alt hip-hop act living in Naarm, Australia. Allen offers a lyric-heavy brand of hip-hop whilst drawing inspiration from genres of soul, jazz, and indie-rock. Allen is known for his introspective lyricism that explores mental health, masculinity, and maturity.At the conclusion of 2022, his debut album Summer of George was featured on Bandcamp’s ‘New and Notable.’ ... more

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