[Verse 1]

Smiles appear, to mask, as | 6
long, as the, effects last | 6
Hysteria en mass | 6
Ignore questions unasked | 6
Can’t smell it or | 4
see the changes | 4
Friends are becoming strangers | 7
Losing wages, on weekends | 7
On bars, that we frequent | 6
Smoke clears, It’s just me here | 6
Empty cup, Had enough | 6

Sobriety has me remember | 9
The night your mind has censored | 7
Watching you stumble, rant, reveal | 8
I left before it ended | 7

Only Here for | 4
invitation obligation | 8
rooms empty | 3
Despite the population | 7

Desperation fills | 5
Lack of social skills | 5
Drown in self pity trying to be witty

Friends is a word, actions have meaning
I say this because their actions were demeaning
At least I had the friends

[Hook]
Why does joy remind me of sadness
Why does normal have to be like this
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in
Every connection met with anxiety
What could go wrong?
I’ll give you a variety
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in

Why does joy remind me of sadness
Why does normal have to be like this
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in
Every connection met with anxiety
What could go wrong?
I’ll give you a variety
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in


[Verse 2]

Open the door, hi with a hug
Their Enthusiasm, just shrug
Minutes ago, tears
Walking up streets
going through fears
Hearing the cars thinking of a way out
It's not something I'm saying out loud

But this
Train platform for the cure
Staring at the railing
like a lure
Hope for the day,
don't start parties
With my sleeve, absorbing my eyes
Hoping to disguise, feeling like shit
Not filling rivers but I do my bit

Every party carnivale

Every interaction put on
Giving nothing to let on
Doing my best to hide it
Hope they hear your silence

[Verse 3]

This was my doing, I felt it brewing
I let it spark into a fire
worked on that pyre
Irony that
lows brought me higher

Sadness, made me talk less
Compared to the excess of words
I expressed

My cure, was my poison
Drank it for enjoyment
Uncovered problems dormant

conform it
She clicked attending
Her songs so old I'm pretending
It'll bring feelings back
Offending, is what she does best
On that I'm depending, I'm

Spending what sanity I've left
Stealing from logic like theft

[Hook]
Why does joy remind me of sadness
Why does normal have to be like this
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in
Every connection met with anxiety
What could go wrong?
I’ll give you a variety
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in

Why does joy remind me of sadness
Why does normal have to be like this
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in
Every connection met with anxiety
What could go wrong?
I’ll give you a variety
Smile in public, rain disguises emotion
Out of view, floods flow in

[Outro]

Numb
Become so numb
I’m so done
Become so numb

Numb
Become so numb
I’m so done
Become so numb.